Not pride, but fear

Not pride, but fear.......Sometimes Oftentimes it's not pride, but fear that stands in my way. Rather than stand up and face the fear no matter how small or big it may be, often times it just feels right to take the coward approach and shut down and shut off from everything. Not just because of fear of the outcome, but also because of the fear that even if it does turn out in the positive direction initially, a way to muck it up in the end will be found by you and ultimately happen and you'd rather save someone else from experiencing that. Thus taking you back to point A in the end. Why, because at the end of the day the fear of many things and knowing yourself and your self sabotaging ways will always stand in the way of going after things you truly want in life because you know how it's going to turn out in the end and you've accepted it and grown to welcome it. It's not a way to live one's life and there's no way it can lead to happiness in life, but it's the life one lives and maybe deserves. So no it's not pride that keeps me from going after that happiness, it's simply fear on so many different levels that stands in my way.