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Just something that makes completely no sense I came up with and started writing while bored and actually decided to share. Enjoy or not. Much love and be blessed.- CJ



Ever been in a relationship with someone who in their world they were your #1 girl?  They gave you their all, love, time, company and most of all heart and treated you like a true king, because in their mind they envisioned oneday becoming your wife.  Yet despite all the love they gave and time they put into you, you have the audacity to pull a Donnell Jones and hit her with some  "I Just need time to see Where I wanna be" type shit. And as you walk out the door you just kiss her on the forehead and tell her life is a journey and your ready to explore it.

Her reaction after this is pretty much being pissed, yes more pissed than sad and hurt. She's going back and forth listnening to old 2Pac songs like keep ya head up and from there onto songs like R. Kelly When a Womans fed up and  so on. Sadness and pain soon mixes in with the anger as she reminices about how she was down for you for so long, a true ride or die and you just knocked her down to the point she didn't feel she could get back up. Until one day she got tired of sleeping on a pillow full of tears and she realized that life goes on.

She feels as though even if though you didn't choose her and left, it doesn't make you right nor wrong. And even though you were the epitome of her life that doesn't make her wrong nor right, because she feels that after all she was just your girlfriend and not your wife and she should of acted in that capacity. If she had then maybe this break-up would've been "just one of them things" And not a freakining tragedy. Her feeling is that all the time she spent mad at you, she should've been mad at herself.

Because after all she was the one that gave you the key to her house, let you hang clothes in her closet, washed all your dirty clothes, and let you finish all the leftovers, just so the food don't go bad. She even let you go raw when you claimed to have lost all your rubbers. She supported you in all your dreams even more than your family. Whom would even call her to try and stay in touch wiith you.  Hell you were even recieving mail at her address because you slept there so much.

You pretty much lived with her.Total control of the remote control to the TV, DVD, and radio All yours.  And even though your name wasn't on her lease you had stuff in HER house that was off limits to her.  Kind of like your side of the bed, video game system, or your stash of magazines.  Not to mention your Froot Loops, "shoebox", or tooth brush.  Hell you even had your own set of towels there.  But none of that obligated you to her, because not once did you all exchange vows. 

She walks around now thinking that if she knew then, what she knows now, she probably would've listened and just let you leave without all the bitchin and jumpin bad like she was going to hit you, but in the back of her mind all she could fathom was hom much she was going to miss you.  Even though tears wer shed, she never felt like a victim. She was just to scared to let you go, cause some other chick might get you.  She blames herself though, because she shouldn've never put her heart in her minds position.

Despite trying, she just couldn't shake you.  you were like a bad babit, which upset her even more because all she felt you were was just an average dude that was just average, doing average dude shit. Like always running your mouth with no action and thinking with your dick. She admits that you are the one she wanted to committ to, because she either wasn't living up to her potential or maybe she was just an average chick.  She believes that she was a woman caught up in a feeling both physical and emotional, who was way too willing to give her all to a man.  

Though it may sound stupid to some she knows she'll do it all again, only this time it won't be for some average dude she calls a friend, it'll be for the Man she calls her Husband